i hate my life. my keyboard = broken. and i am typing on ; on screen keyboard....

FUCK.....

this is gay.

paint is everywhere too... sweet.


































































































































































































































































food sounds good..

people are stupid.
go do something with your life.
instead of making people hate theirs.
please?
it would be nice.

 
robert pattinson, i love you.

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 i was right about my piece of crap day.
well, it was really good. up until..
now. mom just got a letter in the mail saying:
stephanie maher is failing grade nine. 
there is still time to make her pass.
i'm failing LA,SCIENCE,MATH&SS.
oh this is really really great.
i love it.
sucky summer.
joyz..
i hate life right now. 
i hate alot of things. 
right now.

GO DIE YOU PIECE OF SHIT.

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 watching greyz atm. 
it's so good. 
this show always makes me feel something..
emotionally. 

it always leaves on such a strong point.
so dramatic. so good. 
the writterz. are amazing. 

all the long speeches. are. 
great. 

i love this show. 
i love the music in it.
idk, i just love it.

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 7:37am. 
again, tiredtired.

last night or.. yesterday. 
was horrible. 
hopefully today is better.
s4c is tomorrow. 
that will brighten my spirits.
hopefully.

going to the mall after school
with mellis. should be fun?
okay. 
bye now. 
catching the bus in a few.

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today was intence. 
i'm now, single. and no. i'm not proud of it.
but it was for the best.

there was a fight at lunch. 
between carvel. and, craig. 
craig kicked his ass. 
it was crazy. 

yeah. 
that's my day. 
joyz.

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 7:27am.
tired. so so tired.
(the weather, is gross. sun please?)


..
okay. people probably wont believe me. when they read this.
in fact. they will probably call it bullshit. but, i can sware to you all. 
this is. the one hundered percent. truth.

i actually, felt horrible when i was reading your post. 
knowing that i may have had an impact on what you are going through.
well, maybe you don't even care what i say. what i go on about in my posts.
i'm bothered by people, all the time. i get annoyed. and i seem to take most of that anger out..
on you. and i do want to say sorry for that. 
everyone feels the way you do at some point. 
infact, there is stuff about me i wish i could change.
i know, you think this is a load of crap. 
but it's not. 
i actually want to change somethings about me. 
i know the way you feel. you always feel like people are againest you. 
but in my case, i'm just paranoid. 
maybe, that is your case too. but, i'm not around that much. 
so i wouldn't know. 
you need to respect the way you are. 
and if you can't live with it. 
try and change the problem. 
slowly & safely. 
or something. 
you post actually, surprisingly. made me feel strongely.
and miss seeing you, going to the icecream shop. 
things like that. 
for all the things i've said. i'm sorry. 
and, i would really like, if you could join most of the activities i do with other livejournal users. 

cheesey. i know. aha. 
but, what can i say?

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 today, was just another normal day. nothing really exciting. 
gibby is retarded. the first couple minutes of class. 
he kicked me out of class. because, i told him to calm down.
since he was like, screaming at me. for no reason. 
so i went down to the office.
and had the option between, leave school or go to class.
obviously.. i picked go back to class.
so i did. and gib was acting all nice to me when stymist was there.
fag much? fake..
i hate french. so i went to gym instead. and then the vice princable was looking for 
students who weren't in that class. so, i snuck out before i got in trouble.
the hot gym teacher was subing my french class.
god, i could stare at him all day. 
he has the prettiest eyez. 
but, that would be creeperlike. so i didn't look at him too much.
it was hard. HE IS SO HOT. omg. sorry. 
anyway. lunch i had play reherz. 
2 friggin people dropped out of the oomppa loompaz. 
so, we are 2 short. we need to find subz last minute.
which will be hard. 
to learn all the scenez. in like:
less then a month. 

whatever!
listen to tunez. 
pree fun.

i'm done. 
 

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 home today, wasn't feeling my best.
i've been missing alot of school. 
i should really be in school doing work, trying to improve my marks
so i can have breia, dylan and taylor here this summer.
if i fail grade nine, i most likely wont be able to have them here.
which sucks, so i have to pick up the slack. 
i have this HUGE project due soon. 
haven't started yet.. 
i got it in september.
homework, i haven't been doing. 
everything really.

i'm haveing major mood swings about you. 
one minute. i think i can't live without you. 
next, i just want you to leave me alone. 
and go our seprate ways. aha. wow. 
i suck?
mhm. aha. 

(who am i kidding? i need to end this)

anyway, i read everyones posts. 
i have only like what? four friends on here, so..
i don't really have much to read. so, yeah. i do read everyone. 
i'm not 100percent sure if you understand, when you do get invited places..
you never come. and when you don't get invited. you get upset.
it's bugging me, and i'm just wondering. 
i'm not trying to "start shit". but, i have been wondering that..
for the few years or year, i've known you. 
it's something, i never did understand about you. 
that, and other things. 

frig. i'm out.

okay, today. today, was fun. austin came over. we hungout and stuff.
he left around 5:30ish. and then i watch juno with mom and brother. 
just for a bit though.
the end.

 some people laugh
some people cry
some people live
some people die
some people run
right into the fire
some people hide
their every disire
but we are the lovers
if you don't believe me
just look into my eyes
cuz the heart never lies

(this is my personal enjoyment, it would really suck if you thought i was FOLLOWING someone)
i have my own mind, and i seem to like making it up myself. i like bands because i do. 
i'm not influenced by other people, to like a band. some people may interduce me to new bands.
but i do not consider that following in any shape or form. 
i make up my mind in what i like. 
and that's how it is.
just incase any of you thought different.

some people fight
some people fall
others pretend
they don't care at all
if you wanna fight
i will stand right beside you
the day that you fall
i'll be right behind you
to pick up the pieces
if you don't believe me
just look into my eyes
cuz the heart never lies

i'm think of you all more then ever now. i can't get any of you off of my mind. 
you guys are all so far away. and i can't wait to see you guys. 
you have no idea how hard it was to leave you behind.
and not pack you in my suit case. 
i just wish you were here with me. 
and our time to see each other wasn't so far.
and wasn't so short.

another year over
and were still together
it's not alwayss easy
but i'm here forever
we are the lovers
i know you believe me
when you look into my eyes
cuz the heart never lies

i'm pretty sure, i care alot for you. and yes. i mean alot.
the feeling i have around you is insane. and no, i don't think that feeling will change.
anytime soon.
i know, we are going through a hard time. 
but, i don't want it to end. and if it does.
you don't even understand the extreme state i will be in.
i'm taking advantage of everything lately. 
i need to realize what i have. 
and what is slipping away.
and you are one of those things. 
i need to grip, as hard as i can.
and try, and never let go.

and we are the lovers
i know you believe me
when you look into my eyes
cuz the heart never lies

another year over
we're still together
it's not always easy
but i'm here forever

yeah we are the lovers
i know you believe me
when you look into my eyes
cuz the heart never lies
cuz the heart never lies
because the heart never lies

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haley, i would love to come. 


anyway, today was fun. 
i got up around nine, something woke me up. idk what. 
but i'm glad it did. i got up. did my hair. 
and waited for jill to call or something. she didn't.
because she thought i was going to call her. 
so since she didn't call me, (cuz the misunderstanding).
and i didn't call her. me and mom went downtown halifax. 
i baught some shoes. sweater. stuff like that. you know. 
we went to a bunch of nice shops and stuff. 
we baught hotdogs @ the beginning of our trip.
(after pro girl) and then we headed over to aa. 
the guy was really nice, and babe'n. he was gay.
and like in his 20z, 30z. so i had no shot.
lmfao. anyway, after that. we went to a dress shop. 
nice spring dresses. 
and then we walked back down to ss. 
and, went around in the shops there. 
i baught my sister a birthday present. 
(it's her birthday on the 11th)
and then, me and mom ate in the food court. 
kfc? yum. i had chicken and fries. enjoyed it.
then we found this store. and i baught chalk
& whiteboard markers. cuz, i wanted some. 
it was overall a good day.
i love spending time with mom. 
we both decided we are going to go downtown,
once a month now. 
should be fun.

watching willy wonka atm.
the compz in my room for the night. 
since, no onez home. 
cept dad.
itz goooood. 
i like it in here.
but, i wouldn't like other people 
coming in here using it. 
aha. 

anyway. bye.